Sunday, May 13, 2007

Pause

I sometimes wish life had a pause button. So much is going on and I just need a bit of a break. I look at the last couple years and I just can't believe how much has changed. One year ago I was planning my wedding, and now in 1 week Ryan and I will celebrate our first anniversary and in 3 months we will be holding our little girl.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't stressed out. My school finals are this week and next week, we are moving in 2 months (I have moved 6 or more times in the last 5 years and I swear it gets harder with every move), I am 6 months pregnant with a very active little girl and I swear every time I go to the doctors they give me one more thing to worry about (right now they are worried she isn't growing fast enough), and I have had a horrible kidney infection for the last few days (luckily I convinced my dr that going to the hospital was not necessary), and of course there is always my job (seriously cannot wait for maternity leave).

But I've always said I work best under pressure! I think once my finals are over I'll feel a lot better. I just have so much to do and I'm trying to do it all at one and all that does is get me exhausted. So I need to just concentrate on studying and once I'm done with the exams, I can start thinking about packing and all that other fun stuff.

I do love the apartment we are moving to, it has a balcony, central air and a dishwaher- all things I've never had in an apartment! It all newly updated and very nice looking. It is smaller in size than our current one but I think it will work for at least the next year. At least Lily will have her own room (if we stayed where we are we would have to sign another year lease and I can't really imagine sharing a room with a 1 year old!)

I had A's in all of my classes until I completly failed a History quiz, so I will be getting my first B ever, and to be honest, its not bothering me as much as I thought it would. I guess I'm just giving myself a break because I know how hard I've worked...:-) (and paying attention to a 3 hour history lecture while you have a baby kicking your bladder is not a very easy task!)

Anway...I am really rambling. Procrastinating might be a better word ;-)...

tomorrow is the history final, its going to be a long day because I have work from 8-4, a staff meeting 4-6 and the test from 7-10!

Anyway, sorry for the pointless post!